Today I’m on the other side of 25 that leads closer to being in my 30’s. I feel a bit nervous saying that. The grand ole age of 26. Today’s post is just a chatty post to talk to you all. You see I’m now 26 but what have I actually accomplished?
I’m feeling slightly lost because I’m another year older and my biggest accomplishment is raising my daughter. Don’t get me wrong, that’s an incredible thing to be able to do and what I have done without tooting my own horn, amazing. I just want to feel something a bit more fulfilling for myself.
I’ve spoke about how I have future goals and plans for the next 5 years. There are things I want to do that are a big picture, but what about the little things. I’ve no idea what I want to do with my life or career at this point. I know that in my heart if I could I would go back to redo university and study again I would. I’m having a serious think about well, I’ve made it this far and shouldn’t I have done something with my life by now?! When I was a child I thought that people had their lives together when they hit 13. I thought being 13 meant you was a grown adult. IMAGINE! I’m twice that age now and no closer to it. The only thing I know for certain is places I want to travel to.
Isn’t it a pity that you feel like a failure if you’re not accomplished in your twenties? I have a family, a home and enough food on the table. Yet I’m wishing for something more grandeur. Although I’m not quite sure what yet.
Time to focus.
I think that I’m getting to an age where I finally feel more focused on myself instead of thinking about everyone else and their opinions. For my future I want to take steps to make it what I want instead of worrying about what people in high school or my old neighbours daughter might think of me. Just sick of thinking I need to sit quiet and pretty and bite my tongue. I’m at an age now where I’m ready to just push. For whatever it is. I just need to figure out what I want to do and strive for it.
Have you ever felt like this? Stuck in a deep hole but not sure how to get out just yet? It’s time to get focused and use my time wisely.
Until next time