Setting goals makes me feel inspired. Whether it’s daily goals, goals for the month or year or to build towards my future. As you might have noticed I’ve got stuck in a rut. I’m trying my best to get out of it but it’s a lot easier said than done. So to try and not only help build towards what I want for myself, it’s to also remind myself that on bad days I’ve got something to work towards. This is why I’m creating new goals for the remainder of the year.
Being a stay at home mum has affected my mental health more than I would like to admit. I try to keep my head above water but it’s not easy. When I’m trying not to be a negative nancy all the time I dream about what I would like for my future.
First and foremost I’ve been trying to find a job for actually the entirety of this year. It isn’t happening. And it’s causing more stress than I want to admit. So as soon as I do, I want to plan a trip for my family to have a break and be stress free for a couple of days. To get away from all the guilt and be able to enjoy ourselves and forget about our troubles just sounds lush.
For the entirety of summer I’ve barely picked up my camera. I haven’t snapped much either on my phone. I’m setting myself a photo challenge for the entire of September to not only just create content, but to get snap happy. Just to try and pick up the camera again and get excited about photography itself. My laptops and hard drives are full of photos of R and Imogen but barely any of myself or Imogen and myself. I want to try and change that and get a bit more confident and get in front of the camera more. Try and make my boyfriend an insta husband by Christmas.
Honestly I feel so burnt out. I don’t drink, smoke, gamble, go out to dinners or anything. In reality I don’t spend a dime as well there isn’t much to spare. So I’m looking for a hobby that I can stick to. I used to enjoy stitching but it hurt my shoulders now even in my age and the same with painting. Seriously all those years of sewing and painting and forgetting about posture clearly have finished me. I think I might just stick to binge watching Mrs Hinch and cleaning the house. A hobby that pays off?! Ha, if you’ve any suggestions let me know!
Something I talk about often when it comes to my goals is my health. It’s not in it’s best shape. I’m definitely not in my best shape. Within the next week I have both my MRI scan and my colonoscopy to try and figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Believe me when I wish I exaggerated the pains. They’re similar to labour pains and they’re getting worse over time. I can walk up the stairs and it starts. Which is exactly why I can’t seem to excersize as I’m in pain. Soon, just so soon I will find out what is wrong with my body and be able to exercise properly. The more I found out the more I’ll probably talk about it. As it’s actually affected me since giving birth to my daughter. I just have a little glimmer of hope about it all.
At various points during the year I have set myself personal goals for my blog and while I’ve smashed some, it’s others I haven’t. There are weeks where I smash everything on my blog and months where I simmer by and barely get anything done. Unfortunately that’s what happens when you’re unwell, the housemaid, the full time mama and as I said earlier trying to job search. There’s very little time I get to myself and by the time I do it’s 11pm and I just want to watch an episode of the Big Bang Theory and pass out. I’m setting myself a new schedule to commit to for my blog that I can fit in between everything to make sure I stay on top of it. Not just for my blog, but to make me feel BETTER about it all. To make it all a bit more manageable. I haven’t wrote what my actual goals are out loud on the internet to see. When it comes to the end of the year, I will share them and you can see for yourself!
Make an activity plan.
For Autumn and Winter I really want to get into the spirit of making things. Which means doing different activities inside and out with Imogen. I’m talking about going on nature walks and collecting leaves to create different pictures with, Halloween bunting and decorating Christmas cookies. It’s honestly now my favourite time of year and I’m getting excited so watch this space for ideas with toddlers!